Chasing the Music: For the Love of Music Book 0.5 by Josephs Mia

Author:Josephs, Mia [Josephs, Mia]
Language: eng
Format: azw3, epub
Publisher: Next Door Books
Published: 2014-09-21T16:00:00+00:00

Eighteen

Lita had cried herself out, but still hadn’t spoken. Griffin and Lita both rested against the headboard of his bed, and he knew when he called Stacy he’d have to say something. He’d already been vague about sitting up with Lita almost every night, but this felt different. Her coming to him in tears, curling up on his lap, and sharing his bed was definitely different than plinking around on guitars after a show.

Her fingers slid down his arm until they reached his palm and he clasped her hand in his having no idea what to say. He didn’t know what was going on, so anything he said would just be empty words anyway.

She took slow breaths in and out as if still concentrating on simply breathing.

“I can’t eat,” she said quietly, her voice hoarse from crying. “I don’t even get it. I don’t know how long it’s been since I ate a real meal. How have I not noticed this? How has my body kept working? The stress… It’s like. I should know this. I can deal with this. I don’t even know what happened tonight, Griffin. I don’t know how to stop it. How to get strong again. My fingers throb after playing and my legs shake. I don’t know what to do. On top of all that, I feel pathetic for feeling this way and not knowing how to fix it.”

He squeezed her hand wishing it felt friendly instead of like he was falling for her. “Do you need to stop the tour?” he asked quietly.

She shook her head. “No.”

He knew that would be her answer before the question left his mouth, but he also knew he had to ask. “You need to tell Bridget.”

Lita shifted next to him, snuggling in closer to his side. He wanted to pull her into him. Hold her until she was ready to talk, but he knew this wasn’t something he could fix—at least he was smart enough for that.

“I don’t know how. And she has to know, at least sort of.”

“You told me about you. You can tell her.” Bridget was the one who helped Lita. How had she not done more before now? Griffin had worried about her sunken cheeks and weight since near the beginning. Did Bridget not notice? Or was she ignoring it? Or...

He stared at their hands together instead of her face. The desire to kiss her, to hold her, to sleep next to her, to feel her body against his… It was too much to deal with.

“Is it worse?” he asked. “Is it harder to eat now than when we left?”

“I don’t know,” she whispered. “I can’t remember the last time I sat down with a big meal in front of me, you know? But when I think back, it’s like I do these little bites of everything instead of anything that’ll actually fuel my body. And right now I look down at myself and I know I’m too skinny, but what if that changes? I watched this show about this super skinny girl who still thought she was fat.

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